i am sick of boys.
i am sick of being unwanted
(aside from my physicality)
i hate myself
i can't stop physically hurting myself.
(thin red lines found their way into my arms again tonight,
i thought i'd decided to just do thighs. i can't help it.)
the only thing i have control over
is getting thinner.
boy, stop fucking me up. i can't do it anymore.
it hurts so much.